My Little Girl is Gone...

Well I didn't know for sure but I'd like to think of her as a little girl. I went in to see Dr. Hill on Tuesday b/c of some pain/bleeding, and there was no heartbeat. An ultrasound confirmed no heartbeat and also not measuring 12 weeks so she had stopped developing sometime in the week or two before that. I was scheduled for a D&C on Thursday. I was torn about going through with the surgery but he assured me that the longer I kept the baby in me the more risk for infection I had. So I decided to give her back. I guess God had other plans for my angel baby. The nurses say the procedure went well, but that I woke up very emotional, asking to hold my baby and that I was crying and in pain. My mom took Eli for the weekend so I could get some rest, I thank her very much for that. Though I missed him, he is wearing me out now that he's back, climbing all over me and being a *boy* in general. Corey was taking very good care of me but he had to go back to work today and we are all alone now. Thanks to everyone for your thoughts and prayers, I will get through this in time.