Kick in anytime, Celexa

So...I had quit taking my "good girl pills" as Corey calls them, when I found out I was pregnant. After the miscarriage I felt like I probably needed them even more than ever, but I was taking all sorts of different pills for my complications, and wanted to wait to get it all out of my system before adding another one. So, a couple days ago I decided to start back on them. I know they take a while to "kick in" and I'm (im)patiently waiting........and waiting......and waiting. Anyday now would be great! I feel stressed over the stupidest little things. For some reason all of a sudden I expect the living room to be free of clutter and toys. Hello, I have a toddler, I should know better than that huh?! And I just want everything to be in working order (cough cough my OVEN!cough) and clean (cough kitchen floor cough) and things are just NOT goin' my way! WAAHHHH! Can I whine a lil bit??

So while I'm waiting, my temporary fix is cupcakes and CSI: Miami. My mother in law bought me seasons 1-3 on dvd 2 Christmases ago and I haven't seen 4-6 yet except maybe one or two episodes here and there when I caught them on tv. But I have recently started season 7 online....and am completely lost and have so many questions: Why is/was Delko seeing a therapist? Who shot him? What's up with him and Calleigh? Is Ryan a dirty cop now? I'm so confused!!!!!!!!!!

To-Do Tuesday

Wash dishes. again. BLAH!
Cook hamburger helper for Daddy
Make Fruity Pebble Treats for Daddy
Cook potatoes o'brien w/ cheese for Eli and Mommy
Bake oatmeal choc chip cookies (for everybody lol)
laundry
return library dvd's
Meal plan for the week (yikes, I'm late!)
Project Get Eli to sleep in his own bed--Day 1
Contact Monique about Fuzzibuns Diapers
remind Daddy to take out trash
finish putting together Anniston's new bed
Move boxes out of Eli's room
Measure Eli's room for carpet or rug
Measure Anniston's room for rug
clean master bath
organize kitchen cabinets

Dish Washing Blues

I got the blues! The dish washing blues! It seems like every time I get everything clean, there's another sink load of dishes for me. Yesterday Anniston knew I was at my wit's end so she glanced over at me to see if I was looking before she put her plate in the sink. LOL (I did see her out the corner of my eye!) If I trusted the dishwasher, my life would be a lot easier. But, I just somehow think it doesn't get every corner or every dish clean. So I handwash everything and use the dishwasher as a giant drain board. I definitely think we will invest in some paper plates next time we go to the store!

Watch This!

My hubby downloaded a new tv show for us to watch: Sons of Anarchy and at first I didn't think it was something I'd like. But I watched the whole first season in 2 nights and can't wait to see what happens next. The nice piece of eye candy (Charlie Hunnam as Jax) doesn't hurt either! I found out the show is actually based on Shakespeare's Hamlet and Macbeth and read an online article about how the plots parallel...very interesting!

to-do tuesday

Well Eli and I are spending a couple days at my parents' house...which gives me a break from my to-do list. I can still wash some dishes for them and clean up after Eli, but I don't have nearly as much to do since I'm not home.

pack up more stuff to bring home tomorrow
cut up t-shirts for t-shirt blanket

that's pretty much it!!

Monday Already?

Mondays are not necessarily bad to me anymore. Since it doesn't mean I have to wake up and go back to work (haven't had to do that for 19 months now!) Mondays just mean a free redbox movie and trying to remember to post about something blissfully domestic.

Which brings me to the subject of DIY. Since we just moved here we are still slowly unpacking things and contemplating what color to paint the kitchen and what kind of of duvet cover to go with, etc. I got a whole bunch of books at the library for ideas for the kids' rooms and am working on Anniston's right now. I ordered her a loft bed and I have it sanded, primed, painted and halfway assembled. I have bedding for it and a few matching accessories. I'm now mentally arranging the room while I'm actually lounging on the couch b/c I ran out of energy lol.

My Talented Toddler....

can sleeping standing up!






He had gone to sleep in his carseat and while I was carrying him inside he popped his head up and started chattering away, so I thought he was awake. But when I put him down in the living room, he kinda leaned up against the couch and went back to sleep!

Got the pic!

I want stuff!

Lately I have been in the shopping mood. I said "I" have been in the shopping mood, but not our checking account lol. So I went window shopping today. It was fun, but sad to leave empty-handed. Corey's last check and the one coming up will be about half the normal amount b/c of the time he took off when I was having my surgeries. So I'm making a list of things I want and will get them later, a few here and there. First thing I saw when I walked into Starbucks was this:


















And it's not like I just want it...I HAVE to have it!!!!










Next up:








on my bedroom walls. Yep, I want them R-E-D.










and this, in my kitchen sink:

Dr. Appt. Tomorrow

So I have a check-up, they will probably do another ultrasound to see if everything is okay. I don't really have pain anymore and I'm feeling much better. I know my heart will hurt when I see the empty screen with no more baby on it. That will be the hard part. Last time I only looked for a second and then I just closed my eyes. Maybe that's what I'll do tomorrow.

New On Tuesdays....

I decided to bring over my To Do List from Simply Mamas and post it here, only on Tuesdays. (Does that mean I only have to do stuff on Tuesdays? I wish!) Anyway, today's gonna be short b/c I just don't have much energy!

clean oven hood
put away dishes
clean kitchen floors

Anyway, their button is not working for some reason, so if you need the link, here ya go: http://www.crazyadventuresinparenting.com/search/label/To-Do%20Tuesday

Back on Track....

It's Monday and I am back on track with my


I haven't been feeling very domestic lately. I haven't cooked a real meal in weeks. (I do not count carrying a Stouffer's entree from the freezer to the oven, cooking lol. But thanks to my Aunt Brenda, for buying us those, so I did not HAVE to cook!) But I am starting to feel better and (almost) ready to get back into the regular routine. (almost, i said)

In the meantime, I will share my new fave snack with you. I found them at Walmart. I don't remember the price, but whatever it is, is worth it!!

Second ordeal at the hospital....

I am now home from the hospital and my second d&c...the first one was on Thursday, 3/5/09, and I ended up going to the ER not even a week later on Wednesday, 3/11/09 with pain that seemed to be getting worse by the hour. Turns out I fell into the 1% of women who miscarry and have "product retention" as they call it, or part of the baby that was still trapped in my cervix along with some clots. So after another night spent in the hospital I had a second d&c, and was sent home on bedrest with more pain meds. I am extremely nauseated and utterly bored, I would LOVE a couple magazines right now. Maybe I will send Corey on a trip to the library for me.

My body hurts, my heart hurts....I wonder if I will ever hold another little baby, if Eli will get the little sister that I somehow think we need to make our family complete.

Ordered something online today....

The first is a dog tag and the second is a fridge magnet.

Thinking about getting (click here) something like this also.

My Little Girl is Gone...

Well I didn't know for sure but I'd like to think of her as a little girl. I went in to see Dr. Hill on Tuesday b/c of some pain/bleeding, and there was no heartbeat. An ultrasound confirmed no heartbeat and also not measuring 12 weeks so she had stopped developing sometime in the week or two before that. I was scheduled for a D&C on Thursday. I was torn about going through with the surgery but he assured me that the longer I kept the baby in me the more risk for infection I had. So I decided to give her back. I guess God had other plans for my angel baby. The nurses say the procedure went well, but that I woke up very emotional, asking to hold my baby and that I was crying and in pain. My mom took Eli for the weekend so I could get some rest, I thank her very much for that. Though I missed him, he is wearing me out now that he's back, climbing all over me and being a *boy* in general. Corey was taking very good care of me but he had to go back to work today and we are all alone now. Thanks to everyone for your thoughts and prayers, I will get through this in time.